It's been a while

well since no one follows me i'm kinda thinking there isn't any point to writing this blog, but i guess i get a sense of security writing about my life happening and thinking there's a chance someone is going to read it... well whatever.

anyways. its been pretty much forever since i last blogged and that's because college is amazing. mind you, it certainly has its sucky moments and isn't all fun & games.. but for the most part i love it to death. haha. well i have no idea how to summarize the past few weeks into a matter of sentences but i will start form the beginning and just go from there =)

Sooooo since i haven't written anything since school has started a TON has gone on. i've gotten over a fling with a boy and started a new one with another boy. altho this makes me sound like somewhat of a slut i swear im not haha... its all somewhat complicated. but the boy who i liked for a while has moved on also, to one of my friends in fact ;) so it's all good. but ya. the new boy is good. he's really outgoing & i love it. but ya classes haven't been awful, except for the whole almost failing, but we're good now as far as i know.... Also, I'm pledging a sorority!! =) Gamma Phi Beta. It's kinda funny that I even ended up doing recruitment. but i signed up a few days before just thinking i wanted the experience of going through it & i ended up loving GPhi and stayed the whole time & ended up pledging. so here i am, we've had activities & a retreat, Airbands (amazingly fun!), Crush party (really fun until my date got kicked out so i decided to leave with him & my other dates) and i'm currently in the process of "bigs & littles" we chose last weekend & we find out this coming thursday who our bigs are (i'm super confused at who mine is cuz whoever she is is totally confusing me. right now i'm pretty sure it's between emily & jessica. but i'm leaning towards jess cuz she Says she's never had a little.. altho she could be lying.. i don't really know. but kalie says she knows.. so i don't really know if she even knows haha)

Anyways, besides all this good stuff, there's certainly a share of bad stuff going on. well not necessarily bad stuff, just annoying stuff, or whatever. Like how i was almost failing chem, but i think im good now. Like when my parents visited i felt like they had interrupted my life almost, and i felt so bad, but then when i did have time for them they were doing stuff, so it was really a weird visit, it certainly is going to be strange going back home which is in a month by the way && i'm SUper excited for it =) my mom booked my ticket. anyways. Like how i feel like my guy "friend" seems to be having a lot of issues and i feel like i'm supposed to take care of him and those issues in some way, but i don't think i'm capable of taking care of my own issues && his && him in general, which is what's making me unsure of whether or not i'm prepared to have a boyfriend, there's certainly been all sorts of drama in that department, cuz for a little while we argued about how he should be acting around me cuz i'm apparently a lot different than all of his past girlfriends and since i've never had a boyfriend i certainly don't know how to act.... so there's a lot of complications in that area, like i said. but ya. i guess i'm just trying to figure it all out, and how to deal with everything & such. also. Like how i'm having issues in the friends area simply because i feel like i haven't made that many sincere friends, and if i do something seems to happen every time & we drift apart or something, gosh, friends are all so complicating... i don't even know.. ughh. but ya. so that's just kind of a general overview of my life right now.

i think i'm gonna try to update this thing more simply because i don't want to have to do this sort of huge general overview again, cuz it's wayyy too general. i like more specifics. but whatevs. well PeacE. i gotta go do some homework cuz we have meeting earlier tonight.. :)

ttys.
<3 kenzie

Homesick...

It's kicking in... I'm realizing the full extent of how far away I am from home. I can't run away by myself, can't run to my best friends, can't hang out with my sister, say hello to my parents, say goodnight to my little brother, go play with my dog. Nothing. I'm so far away and need to be with people who I know and love soon or I will die... Orientation is crazy fun and making friends really sucks basically... Everyone is already so clicky! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh..... ok HIGH SCHOOL =P whatevvvssss....

Just gotta survive the year. Homework, classes, making good friends, surviving, that's it =)

Ok, now to continue with life.... Just try not to cry.

The beginning... or is it the end?

Dear readers,

So I've always thought of doing a blog. But I've pretty much always figured no one cared enough about me to read it. And you know what, maybe you, you who are reading this, are the only one who cares... Then again maybe not. But you won't ever really know will you. Because you won't know how many other people are reading this. Or will you?

Anyways. Sorry for the rambling, that will happen a lot, I apologize in advance, I can't control it. It something that just happens, and I don't realize until I'm well into a ramble, and then I just end up forgetting my train of thought. Crap, there I go again.......

ANYWAYS, I decided that since I'm going to college, in like one day, that I should have some form of constant communication with the outside world.... that isn't facebook. =)

SO for my first post I'm going to make it short.

I'm freaking out.

Ok, not that short, I'll explain. I'm in cleaning & packing mode for school and it is absolute hell. Not only do I have to pack my belongings for the next 4 years of my life, but I'm also entirely cleaning out my room because someone will actually be replacing me! K, well it's not that drastic, but someone is moving into my room for a few months. Luckily I love her, or things could just get really awkward... So ya, I'm cleaning EVERYTHING AND packing... not exactly my cup of tea.

So, my predicted plans for the next less than 48 hours that I have left of my home are: nothing in the morning, pool with Julia and possibly Allie and Jennifer, movie with KC; then friday continue packing, and leave. The end.

Wow, so this is finally it. It's so amazing. I never thought I would actually make it through King's and all the way to college. But I did it... So here I go, ready to spread my wings, fly, and hope to God that those wings work or I will at least find a soft landing...

See you on the other side!

My new sophisticated "College Student of Chapman University" side that is... ;)

Luvsss <3 

kenzie.

P.s. sorry that wasn't really short. short is a relative term for me ;)