gimmicks.

has anyone else realized how many gimmicks, scams, "contests", and crap that are thrown at us everyday? you open your e-mail and you have 20 e-mails on how you can win a $500 gift card, or win a free iPod or laptop. on facebook you have a billion different ads advertising free products left and right. what all these "free" contests fail to tell you is there's a catch, there's always some sort of ploy that will make you sign up for some free trial, or make you text some random thing, and then the companies go and steal your information, and it just spirals into a continuation of lies. what i'm getting at is how there are so many things in life that have a catch. no matter what, you're almost always guaranteed a problem when something seems to be too good to be true.

and yes, i'm comparing this not only to e-mails, or facebook, but everyday, real life. everything you go through, each thing you face that seems to good to be true, usually is exactly that, too good to be true. there always seems to be some sort of catch in whatever we go through. you get good grades in a high school, but then comes college. you do well on a sports team, and then you break your ankle and you're out for the season. you find something you like, or love, and it always seems to get ruined somehow.

okay, maybe i'm just pulling out the whole whiny act, but really, i'm just saying how i feel and what i've experienced. everything good that i find somehow is ruined, or i find a catch. nothing so far is truly good. and i'm just sick of it. why can't i be happy for some period of time. something i always wrong, no matter what...

it just begins to wear you down after a while. after the same things keep happening over & over. i recently heard the definition of "insane" doing the same thing over & over again, but expecting different results each time. i really and truly feel insane if that's what it means then. so, obviously, based on this definition, i am insane. because i keep doing the same thing and hoping for something to change each time, but instead i end up the same. hurt. and yes, i get over it, but only after a while, or after i begin my next pursuit. so maybe i need to change my ways and move on from what i keep doing. but how exactly am i supposed to do that? i have no clue. because it's just my every day life that i'm trying to live. it's like i'm attempting at some ridiculous feat, or something virtually impossible.

it's everyday normal shit. so what am i doing wrong?

why is nothing working...

i'm just so tired of being wrong all the time.