the yes girl..

im getting mixed feelings from you world

some people say, ignore what you hear, ignore what they tell you, well at least the negative stuff. go pursue your dreams, whatever they are.

so what then, is it true that i can get whatever i want if i work hard at it? honestly i would love to say yes, but its not true. yes, if i work hard enough ill get a lot of what i want, but not everything is obtainable.

i think of it this way, God wants to protect us from whatever is harmful to us. like in the garden of eden. we are so much like adam and eve. we have so much going for us, so much at our disposal, so much that we are given, surrounding us, in abundance. yet, all we see is that one burden, obstacle, that One thing we cant have, and we let it tear us down. we let it tempt us to try and overcome it. we see it as a challenge, when in reality, the reason we sometimes see it as unobtainable is because god is trying to protect us simply from what can damage and destroy us. but i guess thats human nature. another kind of quote i keep thinking of is from the rockharbor "sex, love, and God" event i went to. the guy was talking and said "instead of focusing on all the 'yesses' you are given, we focus on the one 'no'"...

so. here’s the plan. focus on what i CAN have instead of what i cannot. i have been given talents, i have been given opportunity, i have been given loving family and amazing friends that i know i wouldn't be anywhere without, i have been given so much in my life. so instead of taking it all for granted and pouting about what i cant do, lets continue on with what i can. try my hardest in what i know i can do, and ignore the stupd thoughts reminding me of what i cant, because that only breaks me down

so here’s to a new start, a new beginning, a new view on life.

im done with self tearing down. im done with telling myself i cant. im done. because im the one person who will always tell myself yes.

so...

yes, i can be a singer.

yes, i can get good grades.

yes, i can have a better workout mindset.

yes, i can look at life with a positive mindset.

yes, i deserve happiness.

yes, i will find the perfect guy for me eventually.

yes, I am beautiful…

Let’s do this.
Got my game face on.
Bring it.