hmm...

so you know when you have a song playing over and over in your head?
does it ever mean anything to you?
or it just something that playing on the radio when you turned the car off?
well for me, half the time it's that. but the other half the song actually has meaning.
something that reminds me of a certain event that occurred and was really fun, or maybe it has lyrics that pertain to a situation that i'm going through, or maybe i'm just making shit up as i go.
well anyways, my point is, i have had lyrics stuck in my head for days. and this case is because it pertains to my situation i guess. you know the song "listen" by beyonce? ya. that's what i have stuck in my head. don't know the song? forgot it? well here are the lyrics...

Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....

Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out, for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....

LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete

Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...

okay, so i guess you might be wondering how the heck this pertains to my sitch? yes? well i'll try to explain. vaguely.
one of my worst pet peeves is when people can talk anyone's ears off, but refuse to have the decency to listen. let's say a certain someone i know kinda sucks at this. i'm not going all dramatic like beyonce, but i can't say i enjoy being ignored half the time. I'm a good listener. i'm not gonna lie. seriously, mad listening skills right here. i could listen to people for days if they needed me to. it's not that i don't like to talk, cuz trust me i do! but a lot of people find it easier to cope with a situation if whoever they're talking to can truely, 100% listen. no distractions, and lots of time. i'm one of those people, no not the super good listener (altho i am that too) but the person who needs someone to just shut up and listen when something needs to be talked about, or whatever. the person referred to previously isn't good at that. let's say, hypothetically of course, that the person in question had a blog, in which lots of insights into this person's mind were written (yes, much like mine). but let's say (still hypothetically) that the person posted about me trusting them, and wanting to just talk forever, and listen. And I quote "I care more about what's goin on in ur head, and what ur thinking rather than anything else." and yet, this person sucks at listening.... try to get a word in during a conversation, and i'm basically booted out or ignored. i hate being ignored. again, not gonna lie. i like to be the center of attention, you might even say i crave it. so being ignored while trying to talk about random important stuff? ya. that really sucks... i don't know if this is an all the time thing, but it seems like it, and if it is, i definitly need to talk to this random person, . but i really suck at letting my feeling out. we'll see how this goies, if it does....

anyways. i'm pooped. and need to finish my home work. well, this sucks... ughhhhhhhhh. soooo tired!!! nighty night